A wise man once said "ah, to sleep, perchance to dream". Or something like that! I guess whoever it was, was a wise man because somehow I kinda, sorta remembered what he said. Anyway, have you ever wondered how things worked out the way they did. Every thing you are, every thing you do, or have is a direct result of the choices you made. No matter how small the choice was you made, it had an effect on the rest of your life. I hope you made good ones, cause now your living the results.
The funny thing is, you do not realize how your choices turned out until years down the road. By that time it's too late, your stuck with your mistakes.Sometimes your led astray by others. Sometimes you just did the best you could at the time and it didn't work out, either way your stuck.
So what do you do? Who can you turn to for solice? It's hard to say.
A long time ago I thought the world was right. Everything was in the order it should be in. My world turned smoothly. Then times changed, events happened and everything went helter,skelter. Old reliables became uncertainties. My world turned upside down. Since then priorities have changed. You see who you can count on. It is amazing who cares for you only when the money is flowing.
The thing that really bothers you is when you realize even the ones closest to you aren't really close. You don't really have someone who cares.
What to do?
You can't make people like you. It is interesting to find out who respects you. Sometimes all you can do is make another choice. Hopefully a better one than before. What would it be like to sit and talk with someone who truly listened and shared your dreams. Who cares because they care about you. To find that magic elixer when swallowed would wash you away to that place where everything was as it should be and life was peaceful again.